Today started as an average day in the Bizzy Hizzy. This was welcome in my world as we changed the clocks last night— so as far as my body was concerned it was 3:45 a.m. when my morning alarm sounded.
Yesterday they didn’t open the warehouse because of the predictions of the sloppy winter storm.
I performed as expected in Freestyle, meeting the pace they like us to keep. We ran out of work, so I went out to pick. Now, picking is the act of running through the warehouse gathering clothes. A normal cart for picking fixes holds 40 items. A direct buy cart holds 80. I picked my batch is 41 minutes. That’s pretty good.
But somehow I also managed to ship 515 items— when the goal for a 10 hour day is 500, and I left the department for 45 minutes.
I also learned from the supervisor that I have successfully made it onto the safety team.
The teenager said I could have a cupcake to celebrate.
My lead at work has started calling me a beast— basically because for two days in a row I think I’ve hit 110% of the daily metrics. But he also mentioned it when I lifted a heavy box (probably 35 or 40 lbs) from the floor and carried it to my work station.
At the moment it happened, the phrase irked me and I wanted to take some time and think about why.
I know he meant it as a compliment, in that same way we celebrate achievements in sports or the gym. But that’s not how it felt.
It felt like he underestimates what I am capable of because he knows I have a disability— but he doesn’t know I work out with a personal trainer. He doesn’t know I considered body building a hobby. He doesn’t know I used to take 1,000 pounds worth of boxes like that into a commercial kitchen’s freezer.
I am a beast. And I hope this good spell lasts long enough to figure out what to do if the issues return.
But I am a beast just for getting up and going to that warehouse on days that I hurt.
It takes way more “beast” to perform on a bad day versus a good one.